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第二部分 对症下药,逐一对付
18.妒忌
妒忌会引致仇恨、背叛,甚或凶杀,足以使家庭破裂,事业失败,使教会生活崩溃。许多人因为妒火中烧,结果自毁前途,也令所爱的人痛苦莫名。无数的悲剧和恩怨,往往都是因妒忌而起。
如果我们不能胜过妒忌,而要求某人单单爱我们,就会灵性破产,结不出生命的果实。倘若妒忌在我们里面掌权,我们也必定不能为神和祂的国全心全意地工作。
慈爱的神渴望拯救我们脱离这罪,但我们必须愿意为对付这罪而打信心的仗。这需要我们不断自觉地弃绝这种罪恶的欲望:
“神啊,我不再渴望得到任何祢没有赐给我的东西了。倘若祢不把这个人的爱赐给我,我就不渴望得到。我愿把他交给祢。”
只有当我们肯放开这个人,不再坚持要得到他的爱,真的把他放在祭坛上,神才能够帮助我们。
不然我们就像一个病人,虽然有最好的药物治疗,却仍不能痊愈,因为他不愿离开致病的环境,甚至令环境越来越恶劣。我们必须肯放开那个人,不再自私地要求得到他全部的爱和注意,不再坚持占有他的时间,也不再试图管束他和谁在一起。
只有当我们真的渴望自由,向主表明我们的意愿,主才能释放我们。不然,我们对这个人的占有欲越大,我们受撒但的束缚也越紧。
这种妒忌表明我们并没有真的爱耶稣,而我们仍是属肉体的,“因为在你们中间有嫉妒纷争,这岂不是属乎肉体,照着世人的样子行么? ”(林前3:3)圣经对属肉体的人作出一个可怕的宣判: 犯这罪的人,必不能进入神的国。
如果我们在神的亮光中,看到妒忌的真正面目,为我们曾犯的妒忌而难过,对这罪深恶痛绝,妒忌就不能辖制我们。 羔羊的宝血能使我们脱离一切的罪恶,我们必能靠着祂胜过妒忌的罪。
我们什么时候把嫉妒与基督一同钉死,耶稣就能把神圣的、崭新的爱赐给我们,使我们得释放。那些愿意放开他们自私的爱,凭信心追求主的爱和公义的人,耶稣都渴望把这爱赐给他们。
You Will Never Be the Same
PART TWO: Individual Sins
Jealousy
Jealousy can become such a burning desire in a person's heart that it can shrivel him up. When we are jealous, we usually torment the person we love. Yes, jealousy can give birth to hatred, betrayal and in some cases to murder. Infinite misery and sorrow have grown out of this root of jealousy. It can disrupt family life, business life and even life within our churches.
If we are not redeemed from this sin of wanting others to love us alone, we will become spiritually bankrupt and our lives will not produce any fruit. For if jealousy rules in us, we are incapable of wholeheartedly working for God and His kingdom.
We have to be freed from this sin of jealousy, no matter how high is the price. With its burning, consuming fire, it is a foreshadow of how such hellish craving can eat away at body and soul one day in the kingdom of darkness.
But God's love wants to protect us from this. Jesus through His redemption wants to free us from jealousy even if it burns like fire in our hearts. But redemption involves a genuine battle of faith on our part against this ravaging sin.
It is a matter of making a conscious renunciation of such sinful craving: "I do not want to have anything, my God, that You do not give me. If you do not give me the love of this person, I do not want to have it. I will give him up to You." God can only help us if we give up this person and our claim to his love again and again, and really lay them on the altar.
Otherwise we are like a patient who has the best medicine, but still will not recover, because he does not want to leave the surroundings which are responsible for his illness and which continually make it worse. So it means completely letting go of the person whose love and attention we jealously seek. That means, we should not make any claims on him or on his time, nor should we seek to control whom he spends his time with or whom he likes.
Jesus can only set us free if we really want to be free, and give Him a sign of our willingness. Otherwise the rope that binds us to a person will bind us more and more to Satan and his kingdom. Everything is at stake. Such jealousy is a sign that we do not really love Jesus and that we are "of the flesh". "For while there is jealousy and strife among you, are you not of the flesh, and behaving like ordinary men?" (1 Cor. 3: 3). The Holy Scriptures pronounce a terrible verdict on the works of the flesh. People committing these sins will not enter the Kingdom of God (Gal. 5: 20f).
But if we have received a holy fear of our jealousy through a revelation of what jealousy really is, and we regret that we have sinned, it will lose its power over us. Then the blood of the Lamb, which makes us free from all sin will reveal its power more and more. If this redeeming blood of Jesus is proclaimed over the sin of jealousy again and again, it has power to free us. Jesus is mightier than the powers in us. His victory has condemned them to death.
Whenever these sinful attachments are crucified with Christ, Jesus gives birth to new, divine love in our soul, which is free from attachments to people and cravings for human love. It will make us and others happy. Jesus has won this love for us. He wants to give it to those who are willing to surrender their sinful love and claim in faith the righteousness and love of Jesus. Only those who have overcome in their fight with sin will enter the City of God and His glory.